She is the one I am in love with

She will always be the one that I have ever been in love with,but since I catered to her more than me and really didnt know who i was as an individual I ran and left. I want her back,but I know she wont take me back. Maybe I am a fair weather lover and get bored after awhile. Now that I have this freedom I am going to discover me and be happy with me love me and she is the one maybe she will come back into my world once again so that she and I can explore our new found happiness together.